Its been a long time since I blogged anything. Hmm... just past my 21st Birthday 2 Sundays ago. Nothing fanciful, nothing big, no plans either. Had performance on my birthday and all my dance crew were so sweet. They bought me a cake and sang Happy Birthday to me! It's been a VERY VERY long time since I had people singing the song for me. I teared! So touched. Thanks guys!! Love them lots. Baby dear was uber sweet too. He suddenly appeared backstage without calling me and gave me a pleasant surprise. Gave me a BIGGGGGggggGG bouquet of pink roses and bought me a fruit cake! The cake was yummylicious. Performance was good, baby was there and atfer that he sang me Happy Birthday song too!!!! *tear again=* Happy to have all these people around me. Just a note, I know I might sound petty but NO ONE IN MY FAMILY WISHED ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Besides my Aunt. Yeah.. my lovely sweet Aunt who's a teacher now! Congrates darling! And do perserve on okay!

      Past weeks have been busy, busy, busy. More assignments, more tests, more stress. But it's all good. I work better under stress. Had a wonderful day yesterday. Went skating for the very first time!!! Yeah.. all thanks to my dearest baby boy. It was awesome feeling. I know.. we're just skating round and round but to me, it's like real fun!! It's more or less similar to roller blading just that it's easier to manouevre and stop. My dearest Belle girl is also growing up healthily! Should be bringing her for her grooming later and prolly bring her for a walk. She is SOOoo active.

      Gonna have breakfast, shower and do my work. Assignments dued tomorrow, 2000 words. I know I have lots to write, just need to organize my essay and I think I will just overshoot the word limit. Oh well.. Good luck to me!

      Gonna rant now. Sometimes I just think that my family aren't understanding. Imagine sleeping and mum stomps in scolding me for coming home at 11.30pm the night before and shouting about me not letting her check the invoices that I HAVE TO DO! She just goes non-stop and keep raising her voice at me. Does she even see the point that I'm busy with school work, but I NEVER fail to finish all the invoices for her? I whine alot but if she wakes me up early to change something or gives me last minute updating to do coz they need them early next morning, don't I do them all? I can confidently say if she were to give it to my brother, he will wait and wait and wait and maybe forget to do? Or he will just say don't want and my mum won't ask him anymore!? Nothing against my brother but he's just like this and I seriously think they are VERY biased towards him.

      I come home say 10 everyday and she always, always says I GO OUT AND PLAY! More than often, my lessons finished 5.30 EARLIEST! I stay in school after classes for meetings, discussions, or search library then have dinner. Is that wrong! I'm being like smack into my face the "You're 21 so what!? You're still my child and you HAVE TO LISTEN TO ME!" Telling them nicely that I can manage myself doesn't help. Telling them nicely don't worry to much just trust me, they don't. So what the hell am I supposed to do now? There's no difference between me being 15 or me being 21. I'm still like a prisoner. I MUST REPORT, I MUST TELL, I MUST INFORM! She says I will be angry if she calls, but if she doesn't call for funny reasons, why would I get pissed? She likes to suddenly call and tell me about the invoices that I have to do and I will tell her mummy, just leave me a note or sms me can? Sometimes I just can't stand it. She says I don't help her. Makes me so freaking pissed off early in the morning. I hate to feel this way and she says I don't study coz she doesn't see me studying! Wee.. I'm such a bad girl hor?

      Seriously, there's a limit to everything my parent does. I'm no longer young anymore and not that I'm scared of critisims from my friends, but com'on, I'm old enough to take care of myself and please, stop crowding me like I don't know how to walk and look out for strangers. I understand that you care and worry for me, but this is REALLY OVERPROTECTIVE. I'm 21 and I can't be home at MN. I'm 21, and yet I have to report everything. I'm 21 and I don't have a lil more freedom to go out whenever I want. I'm 21 and I can't make decisions myself just coz they think so. I'm 21 and I still get scolding from my parents for going out too often and too alte! I'm 21 but I freaking don't feel like one at all! I just feel like I'm in yet another secondary school days. How else should I tell them. The moment I talk nicely to mum, she would start ranting about safety about me being tired about me blah blah blah and all the rest of the bad stuff she can think of. I don't want to be some rebellious teenage when I no longer am one. I don't have a brain of my own? I wonder. Life sucks, but what sucks more is, if people don't listen to what you say and take into consideration, you just have to suck thumb and live life as it is.

Sometimes I just wish I had more people who are supportive of what I would want to do and where I would want to go..

Sometimes, I wish that I could run away to a far away land where I can aspire to be who I am and do what I want with people I love and love me..

Sometimes, I just wish I am stronger..

Sometimes, I wish I can hold back those tears of mine and tell myself, it's alright.

Sometimes, I just wish to be else where...

Sometimes, life is just so unfair..

      Short post. I'm so gonna die soon. New school term with sucky timetable. Competition and performance coming up 2 days consecutively and more work appearing each day. A really 'happy' lunar new year to me.

      Not forgetting 21st Birthday. Prolly give it a miss. Too busy to really plan something nice. Happy Birthday to me in advance. Till then, take care guys.

      Right, I know my blog is getting moldy due to low maintenance of the owner. A whole lot of events happened during the past 2 months and I'm glad things are changing for the better now. And hey, we're gonna say good-bye to 2008 in 2 weeks time man. Time really FLIES! =p

      Looking back this 1 year really made a big difference in my life. Graduating from Poly, meeting my dearest baby boy, getting into NIE. Not forgetting the fact that my boy left for France just this March 29. Now, he's back for good and he did all these just for me. Many things happened and we have come to love and treasure each other even more. Taking a step at a time and hoping for the better for us.

      Really happy that he'll be back in SG for good. Maybe he might have to fly to US or somewhere for training for a few months next year? *shrugs* Hope he does not have to though. He's been working hard and hopefully having fun at work. Love him to the bites!

      Hmmm.. 1 semester in NIE. Who thinks it's easy to be a teacher!? They are wrong man. NIE is not easy at all! Had my first exam and I guess I didn't do as well as I hoped I can. Either way, no point crying over spilled milk. Just have to work harder next semester!! n_n

      Can't wait for next weekend to be here. Gonna spend some nice quiet time with my piggy boy. =p WHAHAH.. Gained weight once again. Damn. Think we have to cut down on all the pratas that I EAT coz I always wana eat prata. Don't know why. *Sigh* Oh well... guess I should dance more to lose that extra pounds. Baby might join me in dancing! YIPPY!! Dance dance.. love it lots too. Hopefully I'll get to compete coming March 09 and not forgetting the Joint Dance Concert happening on my 21st birthday! HAHA..

      A new year coming, lots to look forward to, lots to plan. Ultimately, looking forward to a better year with my studies, dance and of coz my baby dearest. Heez... Can't wait for next weekend to be here. Wee... =x Alright, enough of blogging. Time for bathe and talk time with my dearest. Till then, have fun guys!

      Have you ever had your heart flutter each time you see someone and the years just felt like yesterday? Everyone must have had their share of such moments, but then again, how many of such moments are real, have you ever wonder?

      Life is always full of ups and downs and life itself is such an irony. Things never happen the way you want and definitely, you will never get what you want. Life is just so unpredictable isn't it? Have the thoughts of one day, your partner will no longer be there for you came across your mind when you guy first set eyes on each other and decided to be an item? Guess no one really do until something happens. It is always so often that its when things happen, people then realized how important the person/thing is to them, will it ever be too late? Even if it's not too late, will things every be the same again?

      People who really know and treasure what they have are hard to come by nowadays. Perhaps there are many, its just that we don't bump into these kind of people often. How many people in this life will you meet? And how many of those you love are the ones you really love and love you right back? Do you know? Have you asked yourself that?

      To me, I feel that there are 3 different people you will love in your life as partners.

1. The love of your life but somehow things have to end, but if you're lucky you stick together through the rest of your life.
2. Someone you love and love you right back, but due to circumstances, it's impossible to be together, unless again, miracles happen.
3. Someone you love in certain ways and love you right back the certain ways. The one who will walk the rest of your life with if 1 & 2 doesn't apply anymore.

      Have you met them all? Do you regret any of these love given out? Or regret not doing enough to keep it going? It's always easy to say "I Love You" but does it really mean like it's said? So many questions to ponder about.

      I guess sometimes... it's better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all.

      Been thinking alot the past few days. So much so, whatever I'm thinking is getting into me, my head and everything that I'm doing. All the thinking haven been really doing me much good. Guess I need to get away for a while.. maybe.

Everybody needs a little time away
I heard her say, from each other
Even lovers need a holiday
Far away from each other

“Love is always patient and kind; it is never jealous, love is never boastful or conceited; it is never rude or selfish; it does not take offense, and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people’s sins but delights in the truth; it is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes. Love does not come to an end."

How much of these are really true?

      Life's been good in Uni, yet so busy and stressful! *ROAR* Assignment week is this week! And really, it's like freaking hell for all of us. Let's get it over and done with and concentrate on Exams! 2 tests coming up soon! Damn.. sigh. I think I'm loving English more than Chemistry now. Oh well.. let's see how I do in my exams. HEez..

      Been hanging out alot with people from the PE side. HAHA.. they are just fun fun and fun! Too bad, most of those whom I'm close with are in Dip or PGDE course and won't be with me through the 3rd and 4th year! Sigh.. Enjoy while the fun last huh..

      As for baby boy.. I still have no idea when he's gonna be back. November's coming, Exams! Baby's birthday. Sigh sigh. So many things, so little time! I WANA PARTY!!! *ROAR*

      Better get going with my work. Presentation tomorrow and I'm stressed with it. Wondering what to wear at the same time. *ARGH*

      Life is never an easy path... JIAYOU!